Sometimes I just crave pain. Most of the time I want a blend of intense sensation with my pleasure….something stingy and sweet with a caress included.
But then there are those other times. When I want it to hurt. Alot.
Today (Wednesday) I was more intense than I’ve been for a long time. Can’t remember when last I wanted pain this much. It was accompanied by a sudden and very intense urge for rutting. I satisfied the urges…And after the carnal fireworks one might expect of all this play…I wondered what brought that on.
Though the carnal part of this…the painslut part of this intense urgent need for rutting has passed. The deeper need for cuddling, making love, intimacy…?
Its still there.
There are times when masturbation just doesn’t even remotely cut it.
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November 5, 2008 at 5:29 pm
Oh sweet… the desire for pain manifests itself in me at different times and with different needs.. And at those times, being alone is not going to meet those desires, particularly not in a healthy way.. Thank you for writing: so honestly, so lovingly and to give someone like me company.
With love, and blessings..
E/dg
*smiles* You are right. It is very difficult to take care of any of these emotions in healthy ways while alone emotionally. Thank you for your Witness Elizabeth. Your kindness and compassion touches me. Thank you.
November 5, 2008 at 11:58 pm
Interesting how are needs are diverse and sometimes so strong. I love the needs and how they change. Don’t need to understand them, simply allow them.
Hello Mark, Its great to hear from you. Blessings to you and your wisdom. *smiles*
November 6, 2008 at 1:03 am
Just gave your feelings, wants and needs the place they deserve… and don’t think or rationalize.. but listen… lately I need the really hard pain less and less… don’t know what it is…
have a wonderfull day….
Good advice dear lady. *smiles* ((warm hugs))
November 6, 2008 at 5:10 am
Shannee, the mind/body interface is a complex place, at first I had difficulty in understanding how Mel could really need a hard spanking, even what some might call a beating.
Likewise why was giving her what she needed such a turn on for me, I learnt fairly swiftly that we weren’t all cast in the same mould.
The Great Potter bakes us all in individual ways, happy are those who meet their proper match.
I believe that one of the most difficult lessons to learn in life is to accept ourselves as we are.
Love and warm hugs,
Paul.
“Happy are those who meet their proper match…” How very true. *smiles* Thank you dear Paul. ((hugs))
November 6, 2008 at 6:22 am
“The deeper need for cuddling, making love, intimacy…?
Its still there.
There are times when masturbation just doesn’t even remotely cut it.”
I’ve been feeling like this for a long time now. It makes me sad that I can’t have it from the one I love, and he won’t let me get it from anyone else either.
((hugs)) I understand your feelings acutely comfy. Hang in there dear lady.
November 6, 2008 at 4:55 pm
Your post is stirring things up in my gut…maybe I’ll have to follow this urge and see where it can take me! Or maybe I’ll just catch up on some sleep. The velvety looking poppies in the image brings to mind a witch from the east inducing slumber on the way to the Emerald city!
Radha
*smiles* Urges? Perhaps this will be another terrific post in the making then. *winks* Just call me Dorothy…*grins*
July 6, 2009 at 1:05 am
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