Citizens and PDA’s

Alanis has a new CD out. I like it. Its more edgy like her Jagged Little Pill stuff, but with the ‘wake up’ messages of more recent work. If you like that one, here’s another I recently posted elsewhere.

I’m in an esoteric mood lately. Can’t tell can ya? *chuckles* I’ve been thinking about spirituality-submission-spirituality…and so on. Its all the same thing to me really. But I’ve been writing some deeper stuff in a book I’m working on about dealing with Empathy. On the last chapter by the way. I’m compiling my notes, so to speak, and thought this might interest you…

Its the idea of knowing yourself. Very elementary principle of spiritual study. Makes sense…but the Kinky part of this teaching in my world is that if you know yourself…I mean really know yourself so that you can say “I AM” with the whole of your being, then you actually know what you are surrendering to your Dominant. You actually take a real and powerful Self and share it in full knowledge of what you are letting another play with.

On the other hand, the dominant who can say “I AM” in a real sense has something to give also…His empowered Self is not just the impulse to control something outside himself…to impose his will on…to cause reaction in someone else…these are the more shallow impulses of dominance. Its fun. Its sexy…but its not the deep stuff that brings real satisfaction and when the Self is strong and whole there are actually boundaries that keep the Self whole even as there’s an exchange. It becomes a Unity, not a One being with a puppet.

Just some more muttering…*winks*

Submissive Journal Prompts

• How do you feel about public displays of affection? discipline? play?

I’ve had fantasies about overt D/s or bdsm playing in public before; as in a kink party. Sometimes, I’ve been nearly possessed with the arousal of the whole idea. I’ve been to a few parties locally though. I think they are really fun, but its convinced me that public play is not for me. I need an environment of trust, which really cannot be had at a public sort of party. I value my privacy too much for that too. Perhaps some day with a very few people that I trust, I’d feel willing to take my D/s play with an audience out of fantasy.

I don’t appreciate public discipline either. Public discipline is humiliating. I’m just not comfortable with humiliation as part of any sort of relationship, so public discipline is only going to make me feel angry.

I like tasteful public displays of affection. An unobtrusive brush on the shoulder or on the back when passing by, taking my hand to help me if I am misreading traffic in a street, a kiss on the cheek good bye. I enjoy holding hands while I’m walking with my partner, especially in crowds too. It makes me feel protected and desired and reassured that we won’t get separated. Odd, I know, coming from the same woman who, in the right mood, would put on a certain sort of skirt and have a certain kind of lap dance in public. LOL! Go figure.