One of the hardest things in my life was to feel filled up with love.
One of the things I used to do about it was seek love from others. Other’s response to that was varied. At one point or another though, my hand was out and their back was to me. It wasn’t always because of me being too needy or too anything….it is just part of how life is…people find themselves doing what they do because its time, needed or whatever and those they love have to fend for themselves a bit.
I railed about that a long time. Still do sometimes.
But I finally listened when a Teacher told me that I have all I need right inside to be whole and full.
One of the responsibilities I have to myself is to fill myself up with love.
This is one way that I do that.
If you read here regularly, you know that I’ve shared on this topic before….I’ve even written and linked about this Invocation before, but these simple truths about loving myself and about how to feel filled up had to be repeated to me over and over again, because I’m human and I need reminders and sometimes it just takes me a really long time to get it…and sometimes others say it better or in a way that a person is better able to hear and understand. So I’ll repeat this one occasionally. Especially if I find a new way to say it.
Here are a couple other ways that I fill up each day:
Here is a related post:
April 6, 2008 at 9:51 am
Shannee,
the Divine Light is just another name for Divine Love, how can you not be filled with it, it comprises every atom of our being.
When The Source created the multiverse the only thing it had to hand was itself.
I really cannot conceive what thoughts went through it’s mind when it made that ultimate sacrifice.
Whether it thought it a sacrifice or just necessary, I suspect the latter.
Everything that exists is the result of that decision.
The tragedy of existence is that the majority of us have forgotten this or come upon it late in life.
The ones who have known it and tried to teach it have been martyred, ignored or considered mad, or worst of all their words have been twisted to suit someones search for personal power, thus devaluing the message.
This isn’t something that can be taught, but only learnt.
Here endeth the lesson for the second Sunday after Easter, Chuckle!!!
With apologies to whoever has to wade through this.
Blessèd be and warm hugs,
Paul.
Hello Paul! I agree about the Light/Love part for sure….and we see things the same mystically for sure too about cosmology and Divine Intelligence. And you are right about the taught part…For me, having someone tell me the truth didn’t/doesn’t always mean anything at the time it is said. Many times in my life, a word, a phrase, an idea, a whole conversation will come back to me in perfect clarity exactly when I need it most. To me, these Truths that Teachers have shared are seeds that way for the right conditions to spring forth and grow.
Most of the time, my Teacher is not there in the learning moments…but his or her voice and message is and I feel safe with them…so it sinks in deep when the moment comes that I can hear and learn.
That’s all a teacher can every do about anything anyway. *smiles* Its totally up to others as to whether they ever do anything with information.
Hugs to you dear Paul *smiles*
April 6, 2008 at 12:25 pm
G’morning sister. *smiles* Your posts on meditation and Tantra have helped me tremendously. I have only done the Divine Light Invocation twice…found myself still “high” days and days later with a great…power…moving within me. It triggered something very deep it seems and I have to remember to not fear it…
I get such a sense of Peace from you this morning.
((HUGS))
Ah…I’m so glad to know that the Invocation helped you. My teacher Mable levitated once as a result of this Invocation. And I have seen it work miracles in others lives….and in my own. I believe in it.
And that fear thing….Yeah. I get that alot. I was talking about this today in my women’s sweat lodge circle. We discussed the distraction, the fear and avoidance dance that people do when they really want something and it looks like we might get it.
There have been many spiritual practices in my life that I had a fear response with. I would run back and hide in the muddle of whatever drove me to seek the spiritual experience to begin with because the change the practice caused scared me so badly. I knew that life as I knew it would change if I did the spiritual practice and let it inform my life as profoundly as it was capable of, so I hide from it in all sorts of stuff.
Sometimes dipping our toes in is all we’re capable of at first with this stuff.
It gets easier with time. I learned to ask myself…what would life be like if I could give up _______ situation that is causing such misery? I say I want to give _________ up, but do I really? *smiles* Facing the fears and naming them helped me get a handle on them most times. Not always, but frequently. Sometimes I have to pray for courage for a long while before things change.
I have been doing this dance with my writing a good long time. I sense that success will come to me. I want it desperately, but I also feel such fear. How would it be if I were successful? So I allow myself to be distracted constantly from my vocations….
Yup…fear of being lifted out of some limitation can really be thick sometimes…
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