My husband and I had some nice moments with this CD you see pictured here. Click the image to go see where you can get your own. Its a lovely guided meditation that’s all about the breath. I find it a good companion to my solitary practice and I thought it might improve our focus as a couple too with our marital reconnection process. We’ve done this once and so far so good. He liked it very much and I can get rather floaty with it, nearly always blinking out of my body for a bit. I think its the didgeridoo on it. Its just a very trancy instrument and its played in very unusual ways. It reminds me of how someone would play a flute sometimes rather than how a didg is usually played.
In any case, my husband reported feeling his kundalini rising with the meditation and that’s really good news for us reconnecting. I got a bunch of visual experiences that continued some dreams and vision work that I’ve been immersed in for months now. Very nice.
Other news….this memory issue that comes with the relapses I experience from the adrenal dysfunction strikes me in unexpected ways. It will result in things like not even remotely noticing things like my registration or inspection sticker on my car being over due or forgetting to get my new insurance card in my car. So…I got a big fat ticket…and I’ve been distracted and forgetful for so long that my registration was not just a little over due…it was way, way over due; makes me seriously wonder why I got away with it for so damned long. *sighs….* That’s how things roll in my world when I’m having relapses and don’t even quite come out of them for a whole year. How fun. I have learned my lesson now though. There is a damned good reason for keeping an online calendar. I can program it to remind me of crap like this so that it doesn’t happen again. These are my work arounds for living with this illness…which I must point out completely clears up when I’m feeling well.
So…no ocean on Tuesday. Only belly dance, writing and meditation….oh and some very D/s conversations about punishments and spankings and rewards…which led to arousal…which led to some nicely kinky sex with my husband. The last was certainly unexpected.
Ocean will happen on Friday most likely…after the details have been taken care of with getting the car inspected. I need Her soothing waves…
I’ve been reading Jacquieline Carey’s Kushiel series. I have read the first three books before. I just bought several of the subsequent books that I haven’t yet had a chance to read and am doing a re-read of the first three to catch myself back up. A very complex story line. Sometimes Carey gets a little improbable considering the rest of the plot line, but its a fun read nevertheless and I like the Phedre character rather alot. If you like BDSM and you like fantasy with a historical flavor, you’ll enjoy the books.
I have been doing something lately that I haven’t done in a long time. Creating altars. I haven’t done that in a few years….and suddenly it seems like breathing to me. I was given these little flat glass coasters that are made for tower candles or candles in a jar to keep them off the surface of your table. They make these perfect little stands for stones and little statuary. I have this little tiki that my father brought me from Hawaii. It is the God of Happiness. You are supposed to rub the belly of it. I have a little box filled with Mayan worry dolls that I love and a fetish that I made from a red rose incense burner that is an exotic green mask shape and there’s a little angel light catcher that a friend gave me when I went to a women’s weekend once on the coast here in Maine. We do that sometimes…just decide to have a pajama party. *smiles* I’ve got a stone that came from Texas that my mother gave me and a bit of coral that washed up on the beach on Molokai and a picture geode that my friend Margie gave me and some stones I got from Fort Williams…and oh…just chachki’s. Sweet stuff that reminds me of something or someone or an experience that brings a certain feeling to me. I do this stuff when I am gathering power to myself….and organizing me.
I like that last part.
I’ve been spending alot of time with my step son lately too. He’s going to be moving out within the year to go live in Portland for college, so soon I will have an empty nest. It will be odd. I like living with my son. I know he drives my husband batty, but don’t all kids drive their parent’s batty? I can get annoyed with him, but I like him living here. I’ll miss him.
I pulled some muscles in my hip when I went to NH for our trip through the Presidential range recently. I was off balance to get into the car and the ice collapsed under my foot, turning my ankle and pulling muscles in my hip and knees. I’m being gingerly about my dancing activities this week.
Oh! And speaking of muscles…I got my bow out last night. I drew it twice. And no pain….Yahoo!!! It will not be long before I can go back to my massage business. I cannot wait….*doing a snoopy dance* And the other thing is that if I can draw my bow, then I can go hunting at some point too. Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy….*grins*
There have been so many distressing things on the news lately haven’t there? I’ve said nothing about it here. I rarely do. I feel that there is nearly constant television and online media coverage of these horrid things. It bombards us to the point where we start to become selective in our hearing about it….and numb to the violence of it emotionally. *sighs…* My solutions to this are quiet…but nevertheless it seems effective in spreading the energy I want to experience in the world….and that’s to hold up my inner light in some way…to take a look at my integrity in myriad ways and ensure that I am living peacefully…to not engage others in ways that perpetuate harmful emotions and activity… My way of dealing with this is to bring my concentration (meaning my intentional awareness born of meditation practice and intentional life style) to my life, to my writing and to my connections with the world around me.
I am able to change myself. I am able to choose peace, gratitude and happiness…even when others around me are/do not. I am able to live ethically and choose my path and behavior based on my desire for a good life and for the good life for others.
I can share that way of living by being an example of that…and I can occasionally just say a word or two, as I am doing here about how to live in and with the world as it is…and change it just a little bit at a time by emphasizing what is right and good in and around me…because I really do believe that what we nurture with emotion, intention and action is what we manifest in the world. That means, if we live in fear, we manifest what we fear and we manifest more fear….and thus the fear and what springs of it becomes more entrenched and more manifest. I do not wish to manifest fear…so very often I ignore the news…only letting little bits reach me; enough to stay aware without letting any fear grab me and run me…because I choose to manifest gratitude and joy.
Generally, I don’t speak of what’s going on in my life here. I stick to the few topics I’ve picked here and sit quiet otherwise…I’ve been through a huge change in the past year…and it seemed time to just share a little more of the details of life in Shannee’s world here. Thus the unusual opening into the details of my life.
I’m glad you all read here. I’m also real glad when folks let me know they are out there and say hello. It makes you more real…I know that I am real to you…but unless I know you are out there, you are just a concept to me…numbers on my stats page. Thank you to those who make their presence felt in more tangible ways and thank you to those who just read and enjoy silently. You are all welcome here.
And just for the silliness of it all, here’s an update on this blog….About a month ago, I generally got about 800 hits a week unless Bonny decided to link to me for some reason. In the past month, the hits have jumped to about 1200 a week with no Bonny referrals at all. When I first began blogging two or three years ago this month, I would be lucky to get one or two comments every couple posts unless I wrote an erotic piece and then I’d get maybe five…I don’t really count that in though. I was blogging on an adult site and it was a bunch of horny men reading. Of course they are going to cheer me on. LOL! Now, out of 186 posts published, there have been 776 comments as of this post going into the cue for publication. The blog comes up for some odd search terms: blow job sounds (I love the sounds of a blow job…but I don’t recall specifically talking about it, do you?), diaper position spanking (I am not even sure what the hell that is. Would someone explain?), clit in pain (this one so fit!), man 2 man blowjob (I enjoy looking at images of blow jobs whether its a man or a woman giving the blow job…but I don’t recall writing about it before, so why would my blog pop up for that one I wonder?), and geez people are even typing in the name Green Rootsdown or Shannee Green and coming up with this blog. That last is rather nice. I can’t figure this out though…why is my blog getting popular enough to warrant such a specific search, but I can’t get Google to tell me how my blog page ranks? LOL! (Yes, I do grow bored when I have pms insomnia at 2am…and such questions can be entertaining to a tired brain sometimes. *smiles*) There have been people systematically searching all the tantra posts here for weeks now and I doubt there’s many left which haven’t seen new traffic since each disappeared off the front page after I wrote it. I am noticing that I never put a link in a post any more that is not hit nearly as much as the post itself got hit. And people are really enjoying my Google Reader Shared list, which is my method of link love. I’m happy about that. Its kind of fun to see what people find interesting over and over, so I’m probably having more fun with the Reader Favorites list I put up just recently. And I find it amusing when I notice that my traffic drops waaay down on Thursdays. I used to think it was a lack of interest in tantra. Its not though. I write about tantra on any old day now and I stopped naming the posts with the word Tantra in them most of the time. The traffic still drops on Thursday. I finally realized its because I don’t participate in HNT…*grins* so I take a serious back seat to all the nudie pictures on Thursdays. I don’t mind though. I don’t want nudie pictures of me on the internet…So that’s what’s up with Rootsdown these days.
Here’s a post on non-monogamy that seems a worthy read.
Oh…and you’ll find me writing more on my other blogs in the coming weeks if you’ve missed me there. To find those, click the links in the side bar, or click here for today’s Artistically Speaking post with some lovely art to examine.
By the way, the art in the middle with the torso and horses is by an unknown artist. I’d love to credit, so please help me if you know the artist’s name. The last image is from Leonard Nimoy. He’s really a great photographer, I think.
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March 26, 2008 at 7:51 am
Shannee, you have covered a lot in this post, where to start?
I can find no link on the picture of the CD, I am running XP Home, SP2, IE7, just in case it’s me. I’d like to hear that CD.
My Alter sometimes gets overcrowded, every so often I relegate the older objects to the drawers underneath, this way they remain in the ambiance of the Alter.
It is important that our inner harmony isn’t disturbed by external events, as we are human, we are going to be disturbed, but the more we can remain calm the better it is for us and the world.
I learned early on in life that we cannot change the world, the only person we can change is ourself, if enough people do this, then we have changed the world, trouble is it’s taking so damn long.
Love and warm hugs,
Paul.
Well damn Paul, You can’t find the link because I forgot to put the darned thing in there. *grins* Here’s the link here:
quantumlightbreath.com Sorry about that. I knew I was forgetting something with that post and just couldn’t figure what it was.
That’s a nice thought…the ambience of the Alter…I like that. *smiles*
Mmmm….I have personally stopped wanting things to be what they were nor do I have any thoughts of trying to drag the world backward toward it mentally or emotionally. Things are now what they are. What will bring balance in my mind is to have an event…hopefully as benign as possible which will stop nations from seeing themselves as us against them…and start seeing ourselves as Us. The human race…and I envision the planet not going back to its former existence as a very diverse eco system…it will not do so unless 95% of the world’s human population simply ceases to exist tomorrow….and that’s not going to happen….so best to seek balance through what is…this world must find a balance as a tropical planet. It will simply no longer be a varied eco system and it will become even more fragile as a result….we must face this fact and work with it.
My opinions only….
And let us hope that it does take a very long time with the situation with our planet…a very rapid change will likely not be survivable for most of the organic matter that lives here…
In any case…I hope you are having a lovely day. Its overcast here. It snowed again yesterday. Can you believe it? I think its not the last storm either….*sighs…*
((big hugs))
March 26, 2008 at 8:43 am
I’m going through the Carey books for a second time this year. I just discovered them, and subsequently devoured each and every page. It is such great mind candy! Would you have any other suggestions? Dr. Zhivago is not cutting it for me. Since reading the Carey books, I have found it difficult to get involved in any other. That would be the kid in me, wanting my own version of adult Harry Potter books to read.
And altars…perhaps it is because spring is here that I am also thinking about altars. Dusting off the various ones in the house. The kitchen altar is my favorite and it is inspired by my mother who insists that all wives should have kitchen altars for prosperity and health.
But the Carey books, interestingly enough, fills me with the desire to visit temples and give offerings. And reminds me to head to the river, and throw flowers into the flow. There is a new Hindu mandir in this city, and although I am not religious in that sense, i do feel the urge to pray before the golden image of Krishna.
As a side note, this winter I bought a concrete mold of a Buddha head. I look forward to making garden paths and random altars in the woods when I have a stash of these heads.
It feels wonderful that spring is here, doesn’t it?
Radha
Hello Radha!! There is another author that I have enjoyed…but I point out to you that reading of bdsm in novel forms are an extremely new genre that I have invested little money in. The few time I have got my hands on a book was because the librarians were not aware that a book was adult oriented….so I’ve got to read only one other author in the past five or ten years that I like and that’s Anne Rice posing in her other pseudonyms of Anne Rampling and A N Roquelaure. Sexy book, though the plots and the characters are not nearly so dense and juicy as Carey’s work. I aspire to writing something lovely like Carey has written. In any case, these books that Anne Rice has written are basically just very long scenes. She also writes alot of erotic shorts that get published in anthologies of erotica. My suggestion would be to check out some of these publishers who specialize in erotic fiction to see what else you can find. I have only read part of one of Anne’s Vampire series. It was sexy also.
There are times when, despite it not being my religion, I will attend a church or a temple so that I might light of votive or some such. Mostly I have honored pagan ways though and find the natural beauty of the land to be the perfect temple….and I make relations with the spirits that dwell there and leave my offerings there. I sing the trees awake in spring. I give an offering for the water’s cleanliness just before the summer solstice and many other things of this nature, praying for the land as a caretaker would. I once had the privilege of attending the Hindu temple that’s on Kuaii…Oh my…now that was something special. They have a rose quartz in the center of the temple that the chants and singing make resonate in this intoxicating way….Wow. If you ever get to Kuaii, you simply must go for the rituals there. Very healing to take in that ceremonial space and then walk among the kukuio grove just after…Mmmm….Heady stuff.
Your plan to seed the land with the Compassionate One’s likeness sounds like a lovely thing to do…*smiles* Do be careful where you place them though…the lime in concrete will seep in the weather over time and can kill many fragile species of plants…maybe do some research to see what species like lime (there are many) and find those plants when you wander to seed the land. You’ll make a very happy altar then. *smiles*
It does feel so lovely to me Radha…just as your musings do…here and at your lovely blog. I enjoy your presence. Namaste.
March 26, 2008 at 11:55 am
This was wonderful to read. I like seeing more of you. *big smiles*
((hugs)) It does feel good to spread out here just a little more than I have done of late.
March 26, 2008 at 2:25 pm
I tagged you in a meme here -
http://cherejuliette.wordpress.com/2008/03/26/tagged-6-word-memoir/
You don’t have to play, but hopefully you might find it fun. :)
Thank you Juliette! I have a post scheduled to publish on this meme tomorrow, so I’ll get to add mine. I really liked your answer to the meme by the way. *smiles*
March 26, 2008 at 3:38 pm
Greenwoman,
First, I wanted to make sure I thanked you for taking the time to make my blogging experience special. Second, I wanted to let you know how much I enjoy reading your posts. I don’t always agree with everything, polyamory for instance, but I respect your views and welcome them. Naturally, I do not expect everyone to agree with my posts or comments. However, I do appreciate the alternative points of view. How dull would the world be if everyone thought the same way? Third, I would like to thank you for this post. It made me think a lot about my work with Kushiel.
Before I met Deborah, I worked with Kushiel energy because I sought the essence of his punishment. At the time, I had never even heard of Carey. A friend of mine told me about Kushiel’s Dart. He told me that I should find it intriguing given what I shared with him about my work with Kushiel energy. I have read a little of the book since he gave it to me, not very much. It is on my very long reading list with Mists of Avalon, and Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, and Pillars of Creation from the Sword of Truth series. I seem to always be reading something.
Marcus
Why thank you Marcus. You say such affirming things to me. I like that about you. *smiles* You are right, variety is the spice and the wonder of life. I am glad you are enjoying your reading list. I have read each of these books you speak of…wonderful each. You have fun ahead of you with your list, I assure you. Blessing you!
March 27, 2008 at 12:44 am
What a wonderful post! And I really enjoyed all the commentary.
I need to re-create my alter…it’s time to do some unpacking.
How much time did you spend on the islands? I was on Kauii last month. Way too rainy for much of Na Pali. But found and easy hike to a sweet waterfall. The tent on the beach was good tho. *grins* Haven’t been anywhere else tho. Maybe the Big Island late next week (for work) . YAY!
My empty nest suffering was missing their humor terribly. Still do. the upside is that I get to walk around naked, and make a lot of noise during sex. Almost makes up for it.
Nice to hear about you like this. *smiles*
I was on Kuaii for about 8 days. I did a lovely cruise along Na Pali on this absolutely calm day. The crew was able to take us in so close the cliffs that I got to stand under the waterfalls coming off the cliffs. Saw some sea turtles and whales…It was a glorious day. Spent one whole day just looking at art galleries. That was just awesome! Spent two days just exploring the Canyon and some other time kayaking on a river there…can’t remember the name of it now. If I go again, I want to explore on horseback and I want to do some more kayaking and I want to actually come home with some of that art…oh! and I want to plan my trip so that I can catch the local hula drum practice that happens in one of the large local parks every other week…and they have some really cool sounding festivals that I’d really enjoy…And that’s just what I want to see on Kuaii. *grins*
I have friends living on the big island. I’ll probably end up there before I get to Kuaii again.
Yeah…getting to be loud for sex and walk around naked is the best…It definitely makes up for the kids being gone. *winks*
I’ve been really enjoying your blogs yanno. ((hugs)) I am so glad that you decided to get off the site to blog…Now…If we could just get WE over here, we’d have a good crowd going….I have been thinking lately that I should just set up a blog for her and an email account and give her the passwords and let her have at it. She could get around her M’s worry about her online anonymity…LOL! Ah Well….((big hugs))
March 27, 2008 at 6:54 pm
Greenwoman,
I just noticed what you said about one of my favorite spanking positions, diaper position. Oh, I just love it! I love being on my back with my legs raised and everything exposed, bottom and all. Sooo yummy!
I can’t believe I missed something so juicy. I need a shower now.
Marcus
*smiles* I enjoy it when people get aroused around me. I am sure that Deborah will be happy to help you out with that problem you have now. *winks*